LOVE & PEACE

 "Love shouldn’t be chaotic. Love shouldn’t be infuriating. Love shouldn’t be broken to be good or heartbreaking to be art.

 Love shouldn’t be built on unsettling circumstances or a weak foundation. Love should calm down the chaos in your mind. It should lighten the heaviness in your heart and it should be your safe heaven from all the madness and the insanity of your life. It should be your sweet escape. It should be your home.

 It shouldn’t be an extension of your chaos, it shouldn’t be messy just because you’re all over the place. It shouldn’t be a reflection of how you’re feeling or the troubles you’re facing. 

You deserve a peaceful love. You deserve a love that makes you forget about the chaos in your life. You deserve a love that reminds you that some things can be in order. Some things are predictable. You deserve a love that reassures you that not everything in your life has to fall apart to make sense. 

You deserve a muse who inspires you to love more, love better, and believe in something extraordinary. You deserve a love that’s honest and pure, not messy and devastating. "Love doesn’t have to be chaotic even if you think the chaos in your life will never end. Love doesn’t have to follow the rules. Love is always the exception."

2017, YEAR THAT TAUGHT ME FEW IMPORTANT LESSONS THE HARD WAY

 2017, YEAR THAT TAUGHT ME FEW IMPORTANT LESSONS THE HARD WAY

 I’m ready to let you go. I’m so ready to let you go. You weren’t the easiest or the happiest and I’m ready to say goodbye to everything you’ve brought. I’m ready to let go of the parts of you that disappointed me, the people who let me down, the moments that I couldn’t hold myself together and the times when I almost gave up on myself. But what I learned were few important lessons the hard way. You taught me that nothing is ever predictable, especially people. You taught me that family could easily diminish your value in a moment of anger, friends could replace you when they find their significant other, people can lie to your heart and break it just to mend theirs, but most of all you taught me how to stand alone, which will always be the hardest lesson for me, but you proved to me that the only person I can control is me and the only person I can really count on is also me. You taught me not to get too attached to people or trust too much or love too much. You taught me that I have to always guard myself even from the closest people to my heart. But I forgive you for all the pain, the betrayal, the unpleasant surprises, and the confusion. I forgive you for the countless nights you made me sleep with tears in my eyes. I forgive you for making the happy times short-lived. I forgive you for not going the way I wanted you to go. Maybe there is something about you that will help me in the years to come. Maybe as much as I want to forget you, you will be the year I look back on to avoid future disasters or think twice before getting close to someone again or maybe you’ll be the year that brought me closer to myself and that will make all the difference. However I appreciate you as you brought me a lot of blessings. A lot of laughter. A lot of unforgettable moments and people. A lot of memories that will make me smile for years to come. Ironically, as much as you made me feel dead inside, you brought me moments that made me feel alive like never before. You had your way of making up for the bad times or the hard times and I appreciate you for making a few things better. I appreciate you for giving me just enough to keep going, to keep believing, to look forward to what’s coming next and to have faith that the best is yet to come. I’m going to get over you. I’m already healing from your wounds. I’m already looking ahead......